"Whom have I in heaven but You? And earth has nothing I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
Ps. 73:25-26
"The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and He helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise Him." Ps. 28:7
"But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of Your love; for You are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. You are my strength, I sing praise to You; You, God, are my fortress, my God on whom I can rely." Ps. 59:16
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
I am thankful for...
61. God's strength
62. Bisquick pancakes
63. Knowing that today is the last day of another month without Chris.
64. The girls being pretty well behaved today.
65. Being able to rock with my Zoe and Ruby and sing them bedtime songs.
66. Good books
67. Hug and kisses from my girlie's.
68. Addie's imagination.
69. Ruby's facial expressions.
70. Grace's logic.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Day Ninety-five
Well, you saw my 782nd flaw yesterday. I am not very graceful when I am under fire. I tend like to pout. I tend like to stomp my feet and yell when I mad or frustrated. Yesterday (and many days before) I was upset about the conditions my hubby is having to endure. My heart was hurting for him. I was mad for him. I was mad that I couldn't fix it all. So instead of turning to the One that gives us peace beyond our understanding and takes care of all of our needs, I acted like a child.
I wish I were like the people you see who are so calm, quiet, and peaceful while under fire. You can just see that their countenance reflects God. I am not there yet and don't know if I will ever be.
"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from Your presence or take Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me." Psalm 51:10-12
"Do not be quickly provoked in your spirit, for anger resides in the lap of fools"
Ecclesiastes 7:9
I am Thankful for:
51. Finally hearing my hubby's voice without delay or static this morning!!
52. Even though I sat alone at church I wasn't really alone. God was with me.
53. Lunch with wonderful friends.
54. Having the waiter compliment us for having very well behaved children. There were 9 children (ages 2-12) and only 3 adults.
55. My kids saving their bad behavior for when we weren't in public.
56. Lazlo's beer bread dipped in honey mustard. Yum!!
57. A sweet hug from a fellow Bible study friend who I haven't seen for many months.
58. Having her tell me that she was thinking about me yesterday and started praying for me.
59. God's grace and mercy that are new every morning.
60. My bed.
I wish I were like the people you see who are so calm, quiet, and peaceful while under fire. You can just see that their countenance reflects God. I am not there yet and don't know if I will ever be.
"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from Your presence or take Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me." Psalm 51:10-12
"Do not be quickly provoked in your spirit, for anger resides in the lap of fools"
Ecclesiastes 7:9
I am Thankful for:
51. Finally hearing my hubby's voice without delay or static this morning!!
52. Even though I sat alone at church I wasn't really alone. God was with me.
53. Lunch with wonderful friends.
54. Having the waiter compliment us for having very well behaved children. There were 9 children (ages 2-12) and only 3 adults.
55. My kids saving their bad behavior for when we weren't in public.
56. Lazlo's beer bread dipped in honey mustard. Yum!!
57. A sweet hug from a fellow Bible study friend who I haven't seen for many months.
58. Having her tell me that she was thinking about me yesterday and started praying for me.
59. God's grace and mercy that are new every morning.
60. My bed.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Day Ninety-four
I let Grace and Addie take some pictures this week. Here's their handiwork:
Grace's:
Grace dressed Zoe up in one
of her shirts.
Addie's Pic's:
Ruby's Saturday's Outfit of Choice
Let us count the layers.
1,2,3,4, and 5.
Zoe helping Addie empty the dishwasher
Today's thankful list is really hard. It's been an emotional day. The Internet and phone communication ability Chris has is severely lacking. As well as, his room and board. I know he is serving in a war and it's not supposed to be posh and fantastic, but I want him to be able to have some sort of comfort and hominess. My heart is breaking that he is having to deal with so little. What he has to deal with makes me having to be both Mom and Dad 24/7 look like a day at Disneyland.
41. Picking up a small shift up in L&D today.
42. Grandma Mary for watching the girls so I could go to work.
43. Life cereal--my dinner
44. My husband's t-shirt that I am wearing to bed.
45. Knowing that as each new day begins means one less I have to do.
46. Arbonne FC5 hand lotion
47. The stress relieving quality of tears. (Just wish I had the energy to let more out)
48. It's almost tomorrow!!
49. Having all 4 girls sound asleep.
50. Ibuprofen.
Day Ninety-three
It took me a couple of days but I have finally decided when to do our 100 day celebration. Some of you may not understand why on earth I am having a dilemma. While others understand and still love me. :) I am a bit on the anal side. Not the overboard, crazy type of anal but the only-anal-about-certain-things type. If I choose to do it on day 100 I will always think about how it really isn't day 100 of being away from each other but day 96. If I choose to do it on day 104, the real 100th day, it will just look weird and I will have to always explain why I chose that day. I mean really what makes more sense.....Woo hoo we made it 100 days! or Woo hoo we made it 104! You may not want me to answer that one. I realize that I am not making sense to very many people but this is just one kind of crazy rationalizing my poor anal self must deal with. So anyway, after all that, the girls and I are going to have our big TO-DO next Saturday on day 101.
I'm thankful for:
31. My Pink Table Ladies at MOPS. Thanks for your openness and honesty.
32. A much needed night out with a dear friend.
33. Mr. Scott for volunteering to watch my 3 youngest so I could have a night out with his wife.
34. The fact that only 1 person saw me slip on the ice and fall right on my butt as I was walking into MOPS.
35. Dr.Pepper!
36. Knowing I am never alone.
37. Singing to the Zac Brown Band with the girls.
38. Chicken and cream cheese enchiladas from La Paz.
39. Laughing with friends.
40. Grammy Cathy for inviting Grace to spend the night.
I'm thankful for:
31. My Pink Table Ladies at MOPS. Thanks for your openness and honesty.
32. A much needed night out with a dear friend.
33. Mr. Scott for volunteering to watch my 3 youngest so I could have a night out with his wife.
34. The fact that only 1 person saw me slip on the ice and fall right on my butt as I was walking into MOPS.
35. Dr.Pepper!
36. Knowing I am never alone.
37. Singing to the Zac Brown Band with the girls.
38. Chicken and cream cheese enchiladas from La Paz.
39. Laughing with friends.
40. Grammy Cathy for inviting Grace to spend the night.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Day Ninety-two
I have so many things going through my head. Most of it centers around feeling sorry for my hubby. He is missing so much and has to live with so little.
It's amazing how much Zoe has changed in the 92 days that he has been gone. Her vocabulary, her understanding of how things work, her ability to do things and her sense of humor are all growing and changing everyday. She will look and act so differently by the time Chris comes home. But one thing will not have changed....her knowledge of how much her daddy loves her. I ask her every night before bed, "Do you know daddy loves you?" "Yes!", she says. "How much does daddy love you?", I ask. And then we hold out her hands as wide as we can and I say "This much!" Zoe laughs and shakes her head yes.
Chris is a wonderful Daddy. Each one of his girls knows beyond a shadow of a doubt that he loves them. He says "I love you!" all the time, he gives the best hugs, even his smile says "I love you".
Chris,
I love you Chris!! All your girls love you, miss you and wish we could make your time away better. We wish your living conditions were better and that your internet service worked better considering how much you're paying for it. We can't wait to be able to have a conversation with you when we can hear every syllable (not just every other one) and when there is no long delay. We are extremely thankful that you are safe and that we can at least hear most of your voice when you call. We hope you can feel our love helping you get through each day. We feel yours holding us up and giving us a reason to get up every morning and take on the day ahead. XOXOXO Me, Grace, Addie, Ruby, and Zoe.
I'm thankful for:
21. The deer meat that fills our freezer courtesy of Chris.
22. Eating apples and cheddar cheese.
23. Aunt Leah for reminding me that we are all human and not perfect. Love you!
24. my fuzzy slippers
25. sweet potato fries
26. The Jesus Storybook Bible--I highly recommend it! Amazing!--Thanks Casey! :)
27. God's "never stopping, never giving up, unbreaking, always and forever love" (quote from The Jesus Storybook Bible)
28. The sunshine and 42 degrees today.
29. The Office reruns
30. A certain 10 yr old for giving her 2 little sisters baths while I cooked dinner.
It's amazing how much Zoe has changed in the 92 days that he has been gone. Her vocabulary, her understanding of how things work, her ability to do things and her sense of humor are all growing and changing everyday. She will look and act so differently by the time Chris comes home. But one thing will not have changed....her knowledge of how much her daddy loves her. I ask her every night before bed, "Do you know daddy loves you?" "Yes!", she says. "How much does daddy love you?", I ask. And then we hold out her hands as wide as we can and I say "This much!" Zoe laughs and shakes her head yes.
Chris is a wonderful Daddy. Each one of his girls knows beyond a shadow of a doubt that he loves them. He says "I love you!" all the time, he gives the best hugs, even his smile says "I love you".
Chris,
I love you Chris!! All your girls love you, miss you and wish we could make your time away better. We wish your living conditions were better and that your internet service worked better considering how much you're paying for it. We can't wait to be able to have a conversation with you when we can hear every syllable (not just every other one) and when there is no long delay. We are extremely thankful that you are safe and that we can at least hear most of your voice when you call. We hope you can feel our love helping you get through each day. We feel yours holding us up and giving us a reason to get up every morning and take on the day ahead. XOXOXO Me, Grace, Addie, Ruby, and Zoe.
I'm thankful for:
21. The deer meat that fills our freezer courtesy of Chris.
22. Eating apples and cheddar cheese.
23. Aunt Leah for reminding me that we are all human and not perfect. Love you!
24. my fuzzy slippers
25. sweet potato fries
26. The Jesus Storybook Bible--I highly recommend it! Amazing!--Thanks Casey! :)
27. God's "never stopping, never giving up, unbreaking, always and forever love" (quote from The Jesus Storybook Bible)
28. The sunshine and 42 degrees today.
29. The Office reruns
30. A certain 10 yr old for giving her 2 little sisters baths while I cooked dinner.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Day Ninety-one
Wordless Wednesday~~A little of this and a little of that.
Today Addie's class helped
lead chapel at school.
She's the one in purple.
Zoe and "Daddy" watching the Bears....lose :(
Z and "D"
"Chris" celebrating a Bears touchdown.
(too bad it didn't end up helping them win)
"Chris" and Scott discussing the game.
A worn out Bear's Fan
I'm Thankful for:
11. booklights
12. Puffs plus with lotion
13. our reliable van
14. mint-chip ice cream
15. sweet friends who give hugs right when I need it.
16. detangling spray (with 4 girls this is a must!)
17. hand-me-downs
18. local Christian radio stations
19. the ability for Chris and I to send our girls to a Christian school.
20. Nana Joan, she picks up my 2 big girls from school every Wednesday allowing me to have a more relaxed afternoon at home.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Day Ninety
Addie wrote a little song for daddy tonight:
Dad by day all I think about is you.
I am lost in the world around me.
Your in my heart but I want to see your face.
I can't wait to see you again.
Isn't that the cutest little thing ever! She even made up a little tune to sing it to. Her goal is to record a video and send it to her Daddy. I think his heart will melt.
Day 100 is coming up and I am having a little bit of a hard time deciding when to "celebrate" making it this far. I started counting the day Chris left and counted the 4 days he was home at Thanksgiving. My dilemma is Do I just do it on the actual day 100 know it hasn't really been 100 days without him? or Do I do it on day 104 and have it really be 100 days? If you think this is ridiculous you really don't want know everything else that's in my head.
When I was talking to the girls on what we should do on day 100, Grace said that she didn't want to celebrate it at all. She wondered why I would want to be happy about that. I explained to her that I wasn't happy that daddy has been gone that long but happy that God has been with us and helped us get through so far. The lightbulb went on about her head and she agreed to think of a fun way to make day 100 special. Any ideas for us? I am planning on doing something for each hundred mark, 100, 200 and 300.
One thing I want to do is count down days 90-100 (or 94-104 depending on your feedback) by listing 10 things each day that I am thankful for so that they will add up to 100. I will start with my first 10 now-just in case.
1. Facetime with my man
2. Pioneer Woman recipes
3. MOPS
4. My Sonicare toothbrush that I got for Christmas.
5. Reese's peanut butter cups (you read that right Mrs. Decker lol)
6. Awesome sales on cereal and having great coupons to go with it. (Thanks again Casey!) Gotta love name-brand cereal for .90 a box!
7. 8:30pm, no 9:00pm
8. Chris M. my workout buddy.
9. Dictionary.com
10. DVR
Monday, January 24, 2011
Day Eighty-nine
I feel like lightening it up a bit today.
A few things about myself: Some common knowledge. Some new. Some normal. Some not so much.
*I am a lefty!! Extremely proud of that.
*I have brown eyes.
*Out of 4 daughters I have 1 who is a lefty and she has brown eyes. My sweet Addie.
*My favorite color is RED but don't tell yellow.
*My favorite authors are: Agatha Christie, Vince Flynn, David Baldacci and Sandra Boynton
*My favorite movies are: Return to Me, Wrestling Ernest Hemingway, The Village, just to name a few.
*My favorite t.v. shows are: Leverage, White Collar, Bones, The Office, American Pickers, and lots of stuff on The History Channel.
*When I was in the 5th grade I wanted to be an archeologist when I grew up.
*I started dreaming about becoming a mommy when I was 11 years old.
*I could eat either Mexican food or cereal for every meal.
*I wish I could be good at everything I try. The first time I try it. It would sure save me a lot of heartache and time.
*I got my first speeding ticket in Clinton, Arkansas. Chris was with me. We were dating.
*I got my second speeding ticket while taking Chris to lunch. Again while we were dating.
*I've been to STOP class 2x.
*Chris married me, his speed demon, in July of 1996.
*I love the sound of the following: the crunch of walking in freshly fallen snow, my girls laughing, thunder, rain, the way my husband says my name, and the little sounds new babies make.
*My favorite smells are: LUVs diapers, my babies when they are fresh out of the bath, cinnamon rolls, and freshly mowed grass.
*Bear with me on this one. Chris has a little shaving mirror in our shower. When it gets all steamed up I draw a little face in it and pretend it's Chris and talk to him. I only do this when he is gone so don't think I'm too nuts.
*If I could choose one superpower I would pick the ablility to fly.
*When I was a little girl I had a baby doll that I named Christopher Lee. Guess what my hubby's name is?!?
*I really don't want my kids to grow up and move away.
*I struggle with poor self-esteem, being too hard on myself, and not knowing what my gifts are.
*I used to daydream about becoming a singer and writer.
*I can pat my head and rub my tummy.
*The toilet paper MUST go over the top in my house. Under is a BIG no-no.
*I truly believe that I am the only person in the house that knows how to change the empty roll of said toilet paper.
A few things about myself: Some common knowledge. Some new. Some normal. Some not so much.
*I am a lefty!! Extremely proud of that.
*I have brown eyes.
*Out of 4 daughters I have 1 who is a lefty and she has brown eyes. My sweet Addie.
*My favorite color is RED but don't tell yellow.
*My favorite authors are: Agatha Christie, Vince Flynn, David Baldacci and Sandra Boynton
*My favorite movies are: Return to Me, Wrestling Ernest Hemingway, The Village, just to name a few.
*My favorite t.v. shows are: Leverage, White Collar, Bones, The Office, American Pickers, and lots of stuff on The History Channel.
*When I was in the 5th grade I wanted to be an archeologist when I grew up.
*I started dreaming about becoming a mommy when I was 11 years old.
*I could eat either Mexican food or cereal for every meal.
*I wish I could be good at everything I try. The first time I try it. It would sure save me a lot of heartache and time.
*I got my first speeding ticket in Clinton, Arkansas. Chris was with me. We were dating.
*I got my second speeding ticket while taking Chris to lunch. Again while we were dating.
*I've been to STOP class 2x.
*Chris married me, his speed demon, in July of 1996.
*I love the sound of the following: the crunch of walking in freshly fallen snow, my girls laughing, thunder, rain, the way my husband says my name, and the little sounds new babies make.
*My favorite smells are: LUVs diapers, my babies when they are fresh out of the bath, cinnamon rolls, and freshly mowed grass.
*Bear with me on this one. Chris has a little shaving mirror in our shower. When it gets all steamed up I draw a little face in it and pretend it's Chris and talk to him. I only do this when he is gone so don't think I'm too nuts.
*If I could choose one superpower I would pick the ablility to fly.
*When I was a little girl I had a baby doll that I named Christopher Lee. Guess what my hubby's name is?!?
*I really don't want my kids to grow up and move away.
*I struggle with poor self-esteem, being too hard on myself, and not knowing what my gifts are.
*I used to daydream about becoming a singer and writer.
*I can pat my head and rub my tummy.
*The toilet paper MUST go over the top in my house. Under is a BIG no-no.
*I truly believe that I am the only person in the house that knows how to change the empty roll of said toilet paper.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Day Eighty-eight
"For out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks."
Matt 12:34
"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me." Ps. 51:10
"May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, LORD, my Rock and my
Redeemer." Ps. 19:14
Just when I thought my words were something that at times would just slip out, I am reminded that all of them come from somewhere deep within me. So when I say “Oops I didn’t mean to say that”, in truth I should say “Oops I didn’t mean for you to hear that” or “Oops I didn’t mean to say that out loud”. What I said is really what I wanted to say, I just didn’t want to be held responsible for it. It hurts a lot more when I know that I am not just having issues with my mouth but with my heart. It goes so much deeper than not having self-control. I guess I need to do some deep cleaning, making sure I get all the corners.
Heavenly Father,Please show me what is hidden in my heart that is polluting my words. Help me get rid of bitterness, anger, hurt, pride, and unbelief. Thank you for loving me even with all of my faults and for giving me grace and mercy time and time again. In Jesus name, Amen
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Day Eighty-seven
Hip Hip Hooray!!! We were able to Facetime with Chris on the iPod tonight!!!
While this is really the 2nd time facetime has connected since he as been overseas, it is the first time we were able to actually see, talk and hear each other all at the same time. It was so good to see his handsome face, even if he was sporting a mustache. The good times only lasted for a few minutes before the delay got really bad. It's hard to have a conversation when you say something and the other person responds like 2 minutes later. But seeing his face was totally worth it! I can't stop smiling.
The last time I saw Chris' face was at the beginning of December. That feels like forever. I am so thankful for modern technology. I would be going crazy if the only form of communication I had was a letter every once in a while. How on earth did my Grandma do it?!
While this is really the 2nd time facetime has connected since he as been overseas, it is the first time we were able to actually see, talk and hear each other all at the same time. It was so good to see his handsome face, even if he was sporting a mustache. The good times only lasted for a few minutes before the delay got really bad. It's hard to have a conversation when you say something and the other person responds like 2 minutes later. But seeing his face was totally worth it! I can't stop smiling.
The last time I saw Chris' face was at the beginning of December. That feels like forever. I am so thankful for modern technology. I would be going crazy if the only form of communication I had was a letter every once in a while. How on earth did my Grandma do it?!
Day Eighty-six
It was so nice to come home to a very clean and orderly house tonight. The hardest part will be maintaining it while still living in it with 4 other people. One afternoon of putting off the lunch dishes and then dinner comes and wrecks more havoc. Then all I'm left with are the products of 2 meals that only 2 of my girls liked and the others complained about. Why does it take more time to pick stuff up, put it away, and clean up after yourself then it does to make a mess? Won't it be nice if it were the opposite? All in favor say AYE!!!
Our showing went pretty good. No offers as of yet, but the gentleman who came to look at it is from out of state and is going home tomorrow to share his finding with his wife. The realtor called me when they were done to tell me thanks and to let me know that our house was beautiful and showed great. She commented on it being well built and asked me who the builder's were. That's when I got to proudly say, "My husband built it." I bet she could hear my big smile and the pride in my voice. Chris did an amazing job. You can tell it was built with love--not just love for his family but love for the act of building a home with his own 2 hands. Man it's going to be hard to say good-bye. It's not a fancy home with formal rooms or extravagant spaces. It's a welcoming haven that is great for a family.
Our showing went pretty good. No offers as of yet, but the gentleman who came to look at it is from out of state and is going home tomorrow to share his finding with his wife. The realtor called me when they were done to tell me thanks and to let me know that our house was beautiful and showed great. She commented on it being well built and asked me who the builder's were. That's when I got to proudly say, "My husband built it." I bet she could hear my big smile and the pride in my voice. Chris did an amazing job. You can tell it was built with love--not just love for his family but love for the act of building a home with his own 2 hands. Man it's going to be hard to say good-bye. It's not a fancy home with formal rooms or extravagant spaces. It's a welcoming haven that is great for a family.
Our living room. I love the
built in shelves and cabinets.
Kitchen and Dining Room
Master Bedroom.
As you can see I have nothing on my walls.
I don't know what to do in there. Suggestions?
On a side note: Why are
comforters always too short? It said Queen on the package.
Master part 2
Master bath
Ruby's room
Flowers made out of the girl's hand prints.
Basement family room/play room
*can you name the movie on the T.V.?
Basement part 2
Grace and Addie's bathroom in the basement.
Grace and Addie's bedroom (basement)
**Zoe was sleeping so her room is not shown. Neither are the other 2 bathrooms, the laundry room, walk-in closets or outside pictures--too dark and way too cold.
Any one want to buy it so I can come and visit you when I miss it?
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Day Eighty-five
I've been working all afternoon and evening to get my home in shape for a showing. I have the last 2 bathrooms left to clean and then I get to go to bed.
Our house has been on the market for over 10 months and we have only had a handfull of showings. We live in a small town that is nicely situated halfway between 2 bigger cities. But you have to want to move here as opposed to moving here by chance.
For me, moving will be bitter sweet. I don't want to leave my home. Instead, I would like to take it with me back into town. Chris built our house with his own 2 hands just the way we wanted it. He did a wonderful job and it is beautiful. I will miss it so much.
Well, I am off to scrub a few toilets. Good night.
Our house has been on the market for over 10 months and we have only had a handfull of showings. We live in a small town that is nicely situated halfway between 2 bigger cities. But you have to want to move here as opposed to moving here by chance.
For me, moving will be bitter sweet. I don't want to leave my home. Instead, I would like to take it with me back into town. Chris built our house with his own 2 hands just the way we wanted it. He did a wonderful job and it is beautiful. I will miss it so much.
Well, I am off to scrub a few toilets. Good night.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Day Eighty-four
Wordless Wednesday~~Bubble Bath!!
Bathing Beauties
Z loves her Ro-Ro!
Mommy loves her cheesy smile!
We tried to make a bubble shirt.
I love this girl!
Look at this face, I could kiss it all day
and twice on Sunday.
No, they are not horns,
though that would be fitting at times.
We tried to do a mohawk but all
we could get was one big point.
That face, oh that face!
Zoe had just "made" bubbles in the tub.
This one's for you Daddy :)
All clean and smelling yummy!
Total forced smile, she
didn't want to be in
anymore pictures.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Day Eighty-three
Well, it's only been 18 days since the first of the year and I am already failing at my goals. Ok, not totally but for the last couple days I have not done a very good job. I am going to blame it on the fact that I have not been feeling the greatest and having that zap any patience I may have. That's easier then admitting I can't do it.
So here's my confession. After telling my oldest to go and put her shoes and socks on so we could go into town to pick up her sister, she complained and snapped "why can't I just wear my slippers!?!?!" (You may say that doesn't sound so horrible but you didn't see her face or heard her tone of voice) After a few more back and forths I finally lost my patience and yelled, "Go ahead and wear your slippers because I am going to put the van in a ditch and make you get out and walk in the snow in your slippers!!" Please note that at this very moment my head is hanging in shame. Looking back I now know I should have just walked away after she first talked back. Where was that wisdom when I need it most?!? It sure would have saved hurt feelings, regret, and a loss of respect G probably now has of me.
So here's my confession. After telling my oldest to go and put her shoes and socks on so we could go into town to pick up her sister, she complained and snapped "why can't I just wear my slippers!?!?!" (You may say that doesn't sound so horrible but you didn't see her face or heard her tone of voice) After a few more back and forths I finally lost my patience and yelled, "Go ahead and wear your slippers because I am going to put the van in a ditch and make you get out and walk in the snow in your slippers!!" Please note that at this very moment my head is hanging in shame. Looking back I now know I should have just walked away after she first talked back. Where was that wisdom when I need it most?!? It sure would have saved hurt feelings, regret, and a loss of respect G probably now has of me.
"The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:29-31
Monday, January 17, 2011
Day Eighty-two
Tonight I am tired. I am not feeling the best. I have a 4 year old who is upstairs in bed crying because I won't get her a drink of water. She's over tired and I am too tired to deal with anyone.
I am going to go to bed, read my book and try to forget about the horrible experience today called "taking 4 crabby kids to the grocery store for our big shopping trip with a mommy who is in a lot of pain" If you think that name is long you should have seen the real deal. Now that's long! I didn't think we would ever make it out alive. We did and tomorrow is a new day.
"I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for HIS compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I say to myself, 'The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him.' " Lamentations 3:19-24
I am going to go to bed, read my book and try to forget about the horrible experience today called "taking 4 crabby kids to the grocery store for our big shopping trip with a mommy who is in a lot of pain" If you think that name is long you should have seen the real deal. Now that's long! I didn't think we would ever make it out alive. We did and tomorrow is a new day.
"I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for HIS compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I say to myself, 'The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him.' " Lamentations 3:19-24
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Day Eighty-one
Christmas time is here again!
Our last family Christmas was celebrated today. A yummy brunch eaten with my mom, my grandma, my sister, my brother, my sis-in-law, my nieces and my lone little nephew. We had a ton of fun together. We are very blessed to live in such close proximity to so many people in our extended family. I counted it up and my girls live close to 1 great-grandma, 4 sets of grandparents, 4 aunts (at least until their world-traveler aunt decides to leave the country again :p ), 4 uncles, and 8.5 counsins. All that plus they have 1 more great-grandma, 3 more aunts, 3 more uncles and 5 more cousins that live out-of-town. Now that's a lot of birthdays to remember!
Here's the highlights from today:
Our last family Christmas was celebrated today. A yummy brunch eaten with my mom, my grandma, my sister, my brother, my sis-in-law, my nieces and my lone little nephew. We had a ton of fun together. We are very blessed to live in such close proximity to so many people in our extended family. I counted it up and my girls live close to 1 great-grandma, 4 sets of grandparents, 4 aunts (at least until their world-traveler aunt decides to leave the country again :p ), 4 uncles, and 8.5 counsins. All that plus they have 1 more great-grandma, 3 more aunts, 3 more uncles and 5 more cousins that live out-of-town. Now that's a lot of birthdays to remember!
Here's the highlights from today:
I tried to get a group shot.
Gma, "Chris" and Jos
Tay and Leah
Presents!!
He's jealous of his
son's present.
Ruby and her silver purse
complete with "make-up"
"Pretty light!"
Don't go toward the light Tenz!!
Zoe was trying to put a
diaper on "Daddy"
Z likes to take "Daddy" with her.
Bro and Sis
(scary mom in the back)
Double Trouble.
We took off in Big Sis' new SUV.
This is what happens when I let
my brother take a picture
with "Chris". Sorry Honey.
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